another day...

haha REALY?.....



yeah so hi?... my lifes been a little off lately... ahh i have all these feelings... for ppl i didnt know i have feelings for... idk think these feelings are real... i think its just cus im lonely... and n e 1 who shows the lest bit of intrest in my.. i freak out and im all like ahhh i like this person alot... so much drama in my life.. all the time... goose is comin back... which is super good... i miss her... i talk to jessi mostly everyday... and my feelings for her arent just cus she shows intrest.. i love her... as for alex... wow ive been thinking about her alot... i mean alot alot alot... cus im retarted... shes the one who idk... she was all ahh i love you... and i dumped her... cus i didnt want her to interfear with me and ash.. thats why i break up with everyone... if i start to get close them.. i leave them... yesh i know.. im stupid... idk.. im so over the drama b/s... it gets old.. real old.. idk... i want to be serious with someone.. ive been hanging out with newberry alot.. loke a whole lot... last nigth we laid in bed and watched malibu's most wanted... and it was so great... nothing happened... he didnt even try.. he just talked about how idk.. we talked about alot.. and he said i was with him for 3 years.. i thought it was only 2... idk... i like hanging out with him i dont feel tempted to do n e thing... we just hang out and talk.. and i like it... grr.. ive came to this well idk what it is.. but me and ash... that was then.. and i need to stop worring about her and who shes with and what shes doing... cus thats her.. not me... shes not mine.. i should be with someone and get over her.. for good... life would be so much easier if i was over her... idk.. i need to think... alot... what do i do?...